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I've been involved in ministry for many years now and I never really took time to reflect back on God's handiwork. I mean just recently I've taken time to just chill and take a deep breath and start thanking God for this journey called life.
I hit some rough spots on the road, but looking at my life now and looking at where I was before I can't help but to be amazed.
So many changes not only in me but in everything I do. One of the things I've realized lately was that I had lost my "identity". Not by theft but by allowing my identity to be defined by what I can do for others and not by who I really was. It happens...
Sometimes I get caught in the work that I forget Lydia in the process. My needs and wants were set aside and I wasn't important anymore. It meant that other's needs and wants were more important than mine, but that wasn't so with God.
God's plans were different(like always)...
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD." Isaiah 55:8 NIV
I felt trapped by what was expected by me...What I should or should not do...What other dictated in my life...
Now it's different...
I ask what I truly want and desire.
I've stopped postponing my life until this or that changes.
I've believe in me. I believe in the God who created me.
I welcome openness, freedom and love.
I'm welcoming life back!